they are little girls now..

sudah lama berlalu sejak terakhir posting some stories here… banyak yang sudan terjadi. senang, sedih, baik, not so good, confuse, doubt, name it.
aziza will be turning 5 next june. sophia will be 4 next october. they have turned to be little girls with lots of lessons mommy has got to learn.  i overwhelmed by all things about them.
masih berpikir untuk berhenti dari salah satu pekerjaan. mempersembahkan waktu terbaik untuk mereka. mmmh...

lesson learned of being a mother

I am no perfect mother for my girls..as i do believe there are no such perfect mothers indeed. :p
But i do believe that no matter how bad was the experience i had as a mother, that would be the only reason for me to get up on my two feet and get back on the road. I cried and blamed myself everytime my lil girls had temper tantrum, we had bad quarrels sometimes...i remember yelled at her when she refuses to put clothes and everything she was doing by herself all the past... huff.. It made me think what have i done wrong to her. Wether i was too busy with her sister, or simply couldn't see the things she needed to tell me... I can go all day doing those stuff..
The things then get clearer when i talked to other moms..read theirblogs..that the best mom ever oftenly had these bad days..
And..you know..kids wont make such big deal about these. One second later, she already kissed me, laugh with me...she already forgot.
It gave me strength to start all over again...
It feels good to know that we can always start again.
Learn from bad moments to create a better future for both of us..for all of us.

We know we made mistakes to learn to be a good enough mother for our children..
it makes us special...cause we can only get better.

Ps: thanks for my very best friend: profitasari, for being a mom herself..

It's Sophia's turn now :)

Sophia is 14 months old on this December. How she grows so fast, yet so adorable. Hugs.
Talking like adults she is doing. Bapak, izza, datuk, nenek, mau, nggak mau ( sambil geleng-geleng kepala), ndak, ambil, jatuh, enak, atit, minta, jajan, enak, minum, maam,patu, sapi, ikan, sabun, bisa nunjukin mata, rambut, hidung sendiri. bisa minta gendong: ndooong. Mimik buat kalo mau minum susu sama Ibu :p

Her first step was at 11 months old, then she stopped a while, and began her real walking at 13 months old. Lucuuuu banget liat sophia jalan. Masih goyang2, kalo udah mau jatuh, langsung duduk n bilang atooh. Hehehe...

She loves to dance, sing along with us, writing books (corat-coret) pastinya, trus baca BUKU!!, ada buku sapi dan butterfly yang paling dia suka. Apii, mooooo. Pasti sophia bilang gitu setiap kali liat buku sapinya. Kalo liat kucing pasti bilang: mioooooong.. Uuh..gemesin banget deh.

Nafsu makannya baik, masih belum bisa makan daging dengan baik, mungkin krn gerahamnya belum komplit ya. Doyan banget sama nasi yang dikepel2, trus sophia bisa suap sendiri. Sekarang lagi giat2nya latihan makan pake sendok dan garpu. She did great job in creating mass. Hahaha.. You go girl.

Been in a hectic busy month..wake me up, when september ends

soooo many things to do... sooo little time..... hahaha...so cliche
ada blok indera (koordinator blok perdana nih ceritanya), AIPKI, nyiapin kuliah mata, faal, anak2 udah mulai besar dan permainan harus lebih kreatif. ntar deh diterusin ceritanya. masih mumet... mudah2an semuanya berjalan lancar, dimudahkan Allah SWT, dilapangkan dadaku gak bete2 lagi... aamiin
anak2 juga mudah2an sehat jasmani rohani. ibu sayang kalian berdua Izza, Phia..i just do what i have to do..

Ontbijtkoek

Berhasilll!!!! Sebenarnya cake ini kesukaan papaku, dimasak di loyang tulban taro di atas kompor. Di rumah, namanya kue ban vespa hehehe.. berhubung di sini belum akrab sama loyang tulbannya ibu mertua (gak nemu dasar buat naro di kompornya n males nyari juga :p) akhirnya pake loyang bulat biasa aja. Ternyata rasanya enakan yang dibuat di Jakarta.. karena: pake gula merah beneran, bukan gula palem. Pake gula merah itu rasanya lebih dalam gitu aromanya di lidah..nah lho, aroma kok di lidah, justru itu, yang barusan aku buat wangi, manis dan lembut..tapi kurang dalam rasa gula merahnya, jadi kurang manteppp. Lain kali bikin kue ini pake gula merah beneran ah. Pelajaran dari bikin kue ini: gula merahnya diancurin dulu aja pake blender, jadi diiris (serut) dulu, baru diblender.

Dulu, seringnya bantet. Mungkin dulu itu komposisinya gak konstan atau kenapa ya? Untunglah udah nemu resep yang pas, tinggal diganti gula merahnya aja. Mudah2an dalam waktu dekat bisa diuji coba lagi n bisa dikirim ke papa mama di Jakarta. Gantian dong, masa dikirimin terus dari Jakarta :p.

Resep yang aku pake nyontek dari blognya: Ry di http://asripamuncar.multiply.com/recipes/item/15/ontbijkoek

Ini nih resepnya:

- 8 butir kuning telur
- 4 butir putih telur
- 100 g gula merah diserut (kemarin pake gula palem)
- 50 g gula pasir
- 150 g tepung terigu
- 1 sdt bumbu spekuk (dicampurkan ke tepung, bila perlu ayak bersamaan)
- 150 g margarin, dilelehkan
- 1 sdt ovalet (aku gak pake, ternyata ngembangnya bagus tuh, telurnya oke berarti)
- kenari kupas secukupnya (lagi gak punya, jadi gak pake toping apa2)

Cara membuat:
- Siapkan loyang tulban atau tube pan ukuran diameter 20 cm, bawahnya dialas kertas lalu dioles mentega tipis2, pinggir loyang juga dioles mentega. sisihkan
- Panaskan oven di 190 derajat celcius
- Kocok telur dan gula sampai kembang, berwarna seperti coklat muda dan berjejak
- Masukkan campuran tepung sedikit demi sedikit sambil diaduk perlahan sampai rata
- Masukkan mentega cair sedikit demi sedikit sambil diaduk lipat, jangan sampai mentega mengumpul di bagian bawah saja
- Masukkan ke dalam loyang, panggang di oven kurang lebih 25-30 menit atau sampai matang (tandanya bagian pinggir mulai lepas dari loyang dan bila ditusuk dengan tusuk gigi tidak lengket)

well..selamat mencoba dan menikmati.

take a step and a deep breathe

kids really get me into thinking what life means, its purpose and the reasons behing your presence on earth. as parents we are trying so hard (sometimes too hard) to be parents who are able to understand them well, after that lead them to be in good way (here comes the religion role) so they know that they will face many experiences good and bad, many people good and bad, but after all, they know which one is the right and best one to choose. I realize it is way too hard to hold this huge responsibility. but take a step and a deep breathe..

Aziza now 20 month-old

Perkembangan terpesatnya memang adalah kemampuan bicara dan sosialisasi yang semakin baik. Kemarin kaget karena dia bilang: mana motongnya 1 lagi? setelah melihat di halaman rumah motornya cuma ada 2, biasanya yang diparkir di sana ada 3. hehehe.. she added her vocabulary for sure. I taught her the English term for things she already knew by showing her books. kata pertama yang berhasil dikuasainya adalah cars!!! kalau yang ini sih gak pernah salah. btw, Izza punya buku favorit kedua sekarang, buku abc, read and slide. Di sampulnya ada gambar abjad abc dan kupu2. She called her book as butterfly book. Sekarang kalo mau tidur maunya dibacain buku Aldo dan butterfly. oia, aku beliin dia poster belajar buah2an dan pekerjaan, ternyata dia suka. kadang2 kalo abis baca aldo n butterfly mash belum mau tidur, minta dibacain ini deh. favoritnya dokteng, koki, pelaut, pak pos n pemadam kebakaran. untuk yang buah2an memang masih sering salah terutama u buah2an yang jarang ditemui. tapi kalau untuk pisang, pepaya, belimbing (yang hampir setiap hari dia makan hehe), durian, anggur (juga minta dipetikin tiap hari padahal asemmnya minta ampuuun), leci, cherry, strawberry sih Izza sudah hapal.