I am no perfect mother for my girls..as i do believe there are no such perfect mothers indeed. :p
But i do believe that no matter how bad was the experience i had as a mother, that would be the only reason for me to get up on my two feet and get back on the road. I cried and blamed myself everytime my lil girls had temper tantrum, we had bad quarrels sometimes...i remember yelled at her when she refuses to put clothes and everything she was doing by herself all the past... huff.. It made me think what have i done wrong to her. Wether i was too busy with her sister, or simply couldn't see the things she needed to tell me... I can go all day doing those stuff..
The things then get clearer when i talked to other moms..read theirblogs..that the best mom ever oftenly had these bad days..
And..you know..kids wont make such big deal about these. One second later, she already kissed me, laugh with me...she already forgot.
It gave me strength to start all over again...
It feels good to know that we can always start again.
Learn from bad moments to create a better future for both of us..for all of us.
We know we made mistakes to learn to be a good enough mother for our children..
it makes us special...cause we can only get better.
Ps: thanks for my very best friend: profitasari, for being a mom herself..
